Not so great at this....

It appears I'm not so great at this blogging business, in all truthfulness - I'm useless.
In the month since my last post there hasn't been a terrible lot happening other than me resigning, accepting a new job, I made another cake (Thomas the Tank Engine this time), attended a friend's wedding, celebrated my second cousins first birthday, booked our houseboat holiday for January and hosted a pre-Christmas celebration in our new home. Okay, so maybe there has been a bit going on. Either way, I'm terrible at keeping things up to date here.

To touch on a few of those "things"....
After just on 7 years in my current job I've resigned and accepted a position as "Fundraising Officer" for a well known children's charity. All these years of charity golf days has finally paid off and I'm really looking forward to moving into a role where I can further my fundraising skills and take on a new challenge.

On another note, I absolutely can. not. wait. to go on our houseboat holiday on 22nd January! We've booked a vessel on the Coomera River for our 2010 Australia Day celebrations. We're headed off with Joel & Tanya, Rachelle & Ben and Nick & Andrina for lots of drinks, sun and laughter. I just hope it's much cooler this time!

I've been struggling with the infertility side of things quite a bit lately, there appears to be a massive influx of friends with exciting pregnancy news (10 at last count) one of whom is due on the exact date our 2nd angel baby would have been due. I'm struggling with the array of emotions more than anything else. I get sad and angry but happy and guilty all at the same time. Don't get me wrong I am extremely happy for all of them and I certainly wouldn't wish what we've been through on even my worst enemy but it's hard sometimes. It's really, really hard. I hear the news and I'm happy for them but sad for myself. I go from being sad to being angry; angry that I can't carry a child and angry that I can give Darryl the one thing he'd love so dearly right now. And then I feel guilty. How on earth can I feel sad and angry when someone has such fantastic news? Like I said, it's a struggle. Sometimes I cope and sometimes I don't. I guess those closest to us and who know our situation will understand - I hope.